Ever had those times where faith runs low? Distressing events lowering your faith in your Higher Power, life in general lowering your faith in yourself, losing faith in humanity…
Authors are required to have a bit of faith in themselves, since at some level you believe there is someone out there who wants to read your work. You believe you have something to contribute to the literary world, be it a sprawling epic or just that one idea that you believe is a universal truth you need to get out there to the widest possible audience.
Almost every artistic field needs faith, as they need the belief in themselves that the work they do is going to make a difference to someone’s life. To add to the fun, they need to hold on to that faith for a large period of time before it will ever be vindicated by the target audience. How badly do you feel for the authors and artists who are heralded posthumously, never seeing how their work has affected others?
For the last month or so, it hasn’t felt like anything I have done has been done well. Even when trying my best to do my best, it has still ended up causing issues. The most frustrating of all is when your best effort is undone by basic errors. When all you want to do is do something well, it destroys your confidence.
And it gets worse when the destruction of faith leaches over into your other pursuits, reinforcing the proverbial “Writer’s Block”.
Gotta keep fighting.